Outside-the-box²

In many ways, I live my life "outside-of-the-box."  Today I find myself again on the threshold of a new frontier, out of my element, in unchartered waters...and I am scared. HOVERING is the term I've used lately to describe the following fear pattern. Reminiscent of an unsatisfactory army push (one where the plane of one's back is not "broken"), I recall the technique a friend once suggested.  "CLOSE YOUR EYES & GO FOR IT!"  Apparently, there was/is a STOP! mechanism in my body that "protects" me from bashing my face against the ground.  Sometimes this shows up as a fear of falling/ fear of failing.

Last week, at the gym, I found myself in this hovering pattern, afraid to push my body beyond a certain point (my extraordinary 70%).  I am beginning to notice how often I get stuck here.  So I have taken to doing push ups whenever I feel stuck/ scared about taking any big leaps in my life.  Yesterday I noticed that my belly gets to the ground & stops me from "braking the plane." Hmmm...if fear resides in the belly, could it be in the realm of possibility that my weight (used unwittingly in the past to keep people a few inches away from me) has been the physical manifestation of my fear of "GOING FOR IT!"  Hmmm?

NOW: I am thankful for my body and how it has relentlessly supported me in everything I've created (consciously & unconsciously).
NEXT: Today I consciously choose to let my body support me in vibrant living.