This week I have been in contact with a number of my most significant past romantic loves. I didn't plan it, for one reason or another they each showed up in a dream or a song... It was nice to think of the good times we shared, to make peace with the elements that had felt painful. I reached out to each of them to say thank you for all we'd experienced together. There were a variety of responses and a couple 'no comments'. Today I cried, laughed & danced for the immense love I have enjoyed with each of them. As I released them one by one I felt a sense of lightness.
I looked ahead at a picture on my wall & had a vision of myself standing at the end of a road. As I walked toward myself the "me at the end of the road" was dancing and totally hamming it up...just being adorably silly & fun, coaxing me forward step-by-tentative-step. What I realized was....this vision was about me, coming home to myself after years of 'losing myself' in relationship. I look forward to getting to spend more time with me in a happy, joyful & laughter-filled way. What I am noticing (and appreciating) is how much being IN ME is allowing me to be more authentic and present with others. What a nice surprise.
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